Never Forget

17 years have passed and the mantra remains, ‘never forget’.  Of course, I’ve not forgotten; nor will I.  Millions converge on social media this day each year to spread the message, the memories, and the commemorations.  I typically shy away from watching the many specials and documentaries that flood the airwaves, choosing instead to reflect for myself on what those final moments may have been like for the victims.  

If I were to know that the flight I was taking the next day, the office space I was in, or my loved ones would face such a definitive and terrible fate, what would I do differently?  What would I want to hear, see, touch, say, and experience one more time?

To hear the rain beat softly against my bedroom window.

To see the twinkling lights of the Eiffel Tower.

To touch the softness of my dog’s ears.

To say ‘I love you’.

To experience the thrill of a new place and the people in it.

Sometimes when I catch myself humming along to a new favorite song,  taking in a new movie, or visiting a new travel destination, I think to myself how those that have gone before me will never get to experience it.  Would they like it?  Would it touch them the same way it has me?  Would they understand that we are all the same; here to experience the joys and pains of life, no matter from where we come.  I strive to never take for granted how fortunate I am to experience all that I have.  Nor will I ever stop living life to the fullest.

Talk about this day, remember it.  Call out the names, ring the bells.  Live.  

I’m not the only one.  You’re not the only one.  We are all made of stars.  

‘Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let the pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness. Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place.’ – Iain Thomas

Never Stop Exploring

388F0DB3-27FD-45AB-91AF-85D39BDFBD77Tonight, my very good friend of over 20 years gave me this picture for my birthday.  She was worried that it wasn’t enough or that i wouldn’t like it.  the moment I saw it I had tears in my eyes.  It seems such a simple sentiment, ‘never stop exploring’, but it had a profound impact on me.  I feel I must go back a ways to adequately describe my emotional reaction.  I have been friends with Dana for over 20 years and we have been there for each other in some of our most critical life experiences.  I hold her and her husband (whom I’ve actually known longer than Dana) in the highest regard.  If you want to know the epitome of good human beings with genuine values, look no further.  If I were of the matrimonial and familial type, there’s is the example that I would strive to live up to.  Now, to be honest, we aren’t as frequently connected as we once were, but that has never been an issue.  No matter how much time passes, when we do meet, we pick up right where we left off without question.  It’s a kind of sense of ‘home’ that you can’t find anywhere else and I cherish it; to be accepted for who I am and what I believe in no matter how different our everyday lives may be.  We have that foundation of ‘I know you’.  So in that moment when I opened a ‘simple’ gift, it was a moment that I recognized that no matter how much time passes, she knows who I am and what drives me.  She knows what I’ve gone through and experienced to reach self discovery, because she was with me.  It really said to me, ‘I know you and I know what you need to be happy, and I support you’.  As a person who has always struggled with the feeling that I belong nowhere and everywhere at once, this means the world to me.

Here goes something

Welcome to my first blog!  For some time I’ve envisioned a place to share thoughts, stories, and random musings, but have hesitated.  Over the years I’ve come to realize that a recurring theme throughout my life has been Courage.  Case in point, this blog.  My aim and purpose of this blog is to weave that common thread through my posts for the benefit of others.  Stick around to see what I spit out as this experience and I evolve.